[Locked to Yuan]

I would like to apologize for my behavior previously. I reacted badly to my emotions and said many things I should not have to you.

... I feel I must also apologize for everything else that has occured. Not just my abandonment of you but....

It has become clear to me that my presence in your world, in both yours and Kratos' lives, has been the cause of much of your troubles. I had never meant for this... for either of you. I... I'm sorry, Yuan.

This is all my fault.

[Locked to Shuraiya]

... Brother? Have things returned to normal for you as well, now?

[Locked to Kratos]

Have I told you how happy I am to have you back?

It appears that normal life has restored itself once again. I am grateful to be back with Kratos, I missed him dearly during our time apart.

Currently we have left Aselia and have returned to my world to make preparations for our trip. We have met up with Higgins, Jim, and Katy Deere as well, and it was a glorious reunion indeed. After learning some information on the west from Katy Deere we have decided to travel down the Allegheny to Pittsburgh where we may get supplies.

As for the boat. I believe I have secured one for us. All that remains is to deal with one man who seeks to rob us of all we own. Pricing a downriver trip for 5 at $100 when he sailed upriver with 33 for $66. I believe $50 is a fair price for the boat. And he has already signed his name, as illegibly as possible, to the deed giving me rights to the boat. All that remains is to discreetly remove him from the flagship of Faber Shipping Worldwide.

I do love owning a boat once again.


[Locked to Shuraiya]

I would like to thank you very much, dear brother, for caring for me during my hour of need. If not for you I would not have been able to make it through those few days so well. I love you very much, my brother, and I eagerly await the day that I might show you my boat.

....

H-he....

[She chokes back a sob]

Kr... Kratos! I'm... I'm so sorry! I didn't mean to! Please... please don't leave me...

... I need you, Kratos...

[Completely crying now]

Sh-shuraiya?


I... I screwed up... so bad...

[Private || Hackable to people she's close to (ie. Kratos, Shuraiya, Ten, and Nabooru)]

... I'm not much of a person lately. I do little to aid my friends and only cause more trouble than necessary...

[/Private]

Kratos, if we still plan on sailing down the Mississippi this season I believe I should make preparations in my world. It is not necessary for you to come, Jim and Higgins have agreed to helping me, and we should be ready soon so it might be easiest if you wait here for us.

Kratos and I are going to be taking a trip down the Mississippi of my world should anyone care to join us. I am sure the ship will have plentiful room for guests, and I plan to charge people of my world for passage as well so you shall not be the only guests. I will provide more information once I have obtained a boat.



Also... the wings are finally off. I miss them...

Hmm. I'm feeling a little bored as of lately. Arche! We should plan for the sailing trip soon if you still wish to go on it. It might be able to provide some entertainment for us. Not to mention we could bring others along with us.

Speaking of others, I'm glad to hear your tattoo is coming along nicely and you don't regret it, Shuraiya. It makes me so happy to hear that!

I was wondering, though? Kratos, Shuraiya... have you two really talked much?

Oh look, Angel did more Kratos/Jacky art.

I just had to do something for the genderswapped event. Too hard to resist! XD

( I'll take this piece of you / And hold for all eternity ~ ♫ )

.... Sorry Kratos.

Yuan had slowly been recovering sine the goddess had visited, and Jacky had been keeping an eye on him to make sure things were well. Of course, the past few days she could do little being a dog. But she was back to normal now, which meant it was time to pay Yuan a visit again. Not that he didn't visit him enough, but he was getting better now and she liked to check in on him. He was even awake at some points.

Kratos was with her today as well. A conjoined visit to check on their friend. Jacky was holding his hand as she pulled him down the familiar hallways to Yuan's room, somewhat in a hurry now that she was human again. 

When they reached the room Jacky did not hesitate to enter. She hoped Yuan would be awake this time. It made her feel a lot better knowing that he was starting to wake up.

Your Love Life is Like Pretty Woman

"I want the fairy tale" You believe that love is truly blind, unpredictable, and surprising. Two very different people can easily find true love. At least, that is how it will happen when you marry a gorgeous billionaire someday ;-) Your love style: Sensual and flirty Your Hollywood Ending Will Be: Surprisingly happy

This sounds very nice, doesn't it Kratos?

I take it back, good dreams can be just as bad as nightmares...

I don't know why I even had a dream like that! I already said that I don't need anything like that... Marriage... I really don't mind if I never get married. I told him that, too. Just so long as we're together. So... why would I dream about it? For what reason would I have such a dream?!

...

It was beautiful, though. We were on the beach... the sun was setting. Just our closest friends. It was... nice. A good dream despite everything...


.... I need to stop thinking about this.

...

I can't belive I almost...

I was soo close... Ia lmost went to him..

An angel...

i Want ththat... so badly.... heknows too... thats why he siad that...

aNd KRatos... he caould be safe...

....

i cant b thsi weak...



so hy do i keep thinkging about it?

Today... today was bad. So wrong... everything just went wrong.

I don't know what to do. I'm so lost.

Between Yuan, Kratos, Mithos... I'm going insane.

I need to help Yuan and Kratos... I can't watch them hurt like this anymore! I'm losing my mind just sitting here.

And I will kill Mithos. He will not touch Yuan and Kratos so long as I live. Even if I do have to die for them, its better than them dying... Anything is better than the two of them..



Strange enough... I don't regret anything.

[Jacky had been surprised when she talked with Kratos this morning and he had asked her to join him tonight. She hadn't even been aware he left the room while she slept until a couple of nights ago. She wished he would tell her when he was leaving. It nearly scared her to death when she woke up and he wasn't there. It took all she had to just lay back down and go to sleep despite the worry. She had been afraid she'd upset him with Benjy or something else and she worried about what might happen.

But now he had invited her to join him tonight. And not only that, he wanted to fly with her. Flying was one of the most amazing experiences she had ever had. She thought back to the last time she flew with Kratos and his wings, it had been the first time she had ever flown as well. So many months ago, on Valentine's Day. That wasn't the last time she had seen his wings, but it was the only time they had flown together. She had loved it. It had been so amazing to fly, especially with him, even if the next day had sort of unraveled everything.

Jacky checked to make sure Benjy was secure on his leash so he wouldn't wander around. He was doing really well with the leash, actually. She left him some food and water for the night and ruffled his fur before waiting for Kratos to be ready.]

owww.... such a headache... and i keep throwing up. now i remember why i swore never to drink again... sorry millie, i wont do it again, promise!

ugh... i cant believe the way i acted last night... sorry everyone! yuan... you too, if i annoyed you too much or something. i have a question for you, though... do you still have any aspirin from the last time you got drunk? i'd... i'd ask kaye.... but....

todays not a good day...

... It left a mark. Pretty noticeable one too. It probably won't go away for awhile...

I hate this virus... Its making Kratos behave so oddly.

I like seeing him happy, he actually laughed for once too, but I fell in love with him just the way he was. This is just... too odd. I want him to get to this point on his own, not because he's forced to.

... This is one strange thing to come back to after losing my memories.

.... I did the right thing, right? He can help the others now and get on with his life. If I never get my memories back... I don't want him wasting more time on me.

I think.... memories or not... I do love him... but he can't know that. I won't hold him back.

[Around noon she sneaks out from the school, thankful everyone is busy with lunch to notice her disappearance. Especially Jaimy. Ever since last night things had been awkward between the pair and she didn't know how to fix it. She still wanted to be friends, she knew that, but she wasn't sure where her heart was anymore. Not with how her mind was acting lately.

She did know that if she had started a song for Kratos then memory or no memory she intended to play it for him. She went out into an empty field, far from the view of the harbor, and waited for his arrival with her violin in hand. She lifted up her free wrist and twisted it in the sunlight, examining the bracelet she didn't remember getting.]

Hher name.... eh saiad her name...

i ahd nowhere eslet o go... nowhre i want to go...

i came howme... only maudei knows... shes letting mee stay at the tavern... promised to keep it a sceret... told her i wasnt ready to talk aobut the ship yet... theyre still not hoem, another week, i know....

i don't know what to do... im so lost...

... I'm sorry, Kratos... I... I need to think. I'll only be gone a few days. I just... I need time to myself. Besides.... you can use this time to talk to Lloyd and work things out.

I know I said I'd stay.... but... I'm sorry.

Lloyd... it was nice to meet you and Colette.

[Locked to Kratos]
I love you... I'll be back soon, I promise...
[/Locked]

[Locked to Shuda]
Shuda... I don't want to bother you... but... could I come stay with you for a couple of days?
[/Locked]

[[ooc: I was thinking about this all weekend, but she really would run away in a bad situation because she thinks shes the problem, and she normally is, and she thinks removing herself from that situation makes it better, so I'm backdating this to Friday night so we can say she's been gone all weekend and is coming back tomorrow~]]