Upon arrival to Harwich guests are immediately ushered away from the town and cautioned not to make contact with any of the villagers for various reasons (none of which had to do with the fact that Jacky was a wanted criminal not only in Harwich but in all of England and that this was the 19th century where time travel wasn't even an idea for any of these people).

At the outskirts of town is the forest. Nothing of interest to the villagers or any passing travelers, but Jacky was an adventurer and she had found something worthwhile in the forest. A clearing with a stream gently running through it. The place holds a deep amount of significance for the couple and was decided as the setting of their wedding. The place has been nicely decorated by their lovely wedding planner, Arche, though and looks like the perfect place for a wedding to take place.

Mingling in the clearing are a few of Jacky's closest friends from her world trusted with the secret of other worlds and time travel. Her sister, Amy, and her dear friend (and Jacky's lawyer) Ezra. Her grandfather, her pastor. Higgins, Jacky's personal steward, closest friend, and old member of the community. All waiting for the main event.

[Light crying in the background.]

Always her. Always.

... I'm such a horrible person. Being jealous of a woman who's not even alive anymore.

He still puts her first. He'll always put her first. No matter what. And I can't blame him for it. I... I can't even be mad for it.

[Voice turns considerably bitter now. Increasing in volume.]

I can't be mad at either of them. Kratos or Yuan.

I... I just love him. So much. But he continues to leave me. He doesn't even tell me when he's leaving. He just disappears and expects me to keep waiting for him. And as much as it hurts I just sit here and wait for him. I let him go to the woman that will always be first and I just sit here and take it!

And then he thinks he has a right to interfere with our lives anymore. He left us. After I fought for him! After I screamed at Kratos for wishing to abandon him in the first place. And he has the nerve to tell me this is my fault?!

I have done so much for the both of them! I have loved them both and I have sacrificed everything for them both and it's still not enough for either of them! Kraots disappears in the night and thinks I will just wait for him. Yuan is so inconsistent in our lives and comes and goes as he pleases. And I sit here and I take it from both of them.

[Definitely yelling, practically screaming, now.]

I just wanted to feel whole again. I wanted to love. I wanted people to care for. I left my friends and family. I gave up my world for them and they can barely commit to anything. Either of them!

I-i don't see why I try. I don't see why I let them hurt me so much. I have given up my home, my family, I have even tried to change how I behave for them. And they abandon me. They both just leave me and think it's okay to come back whenever they wish and I will let them!

.... And I will. I'll let them. I'll sit here and let them abuse me... I'll just... I'll let them.

[Breaks down crying, not even realizing everything she's said was being recorded.]

... less than a week until the wedding and kratos has disappeared again...


shuraiya. can i come stay with you?

Overall, Jacky had been to Grand Chokmah a few times in the past to visit. But ever since Yuan had wound up in the hospital, first for miasma poisoning and then for his attempted suicide, Jacky had come more frequently. Not so much since he had awoken, though. Yuan had made it painfully clear that he wanted little to do with her or Kratos. Not that it stopped her from contacting him when she could, but she had the distinctive effort to keep a physical distance.

There were so many factors that made the need for physical distance for Yuan necessary. He had been recovering still, naturally, and too many visitors too often would disturb his recovery. Before any of this the three had not been on good terms to start with either. And that letter... it explained so much to her.

Jacky was still unsure of what to make of that letter. And Kratos and her had never discussed it. Yuan's safety and his health were top priority, though she never had the chance to see him anymore. It worried her. If she didn't know that Yuan had others he would allow to care for him, even if he verbally refused, then she would have been more worried. As it was, she had merely resigned herself to her fate, allowing Yuan the space he desired while keeping in contact still so he could not claim that she didn't try as he had done.

As much as Yuan liked to say that Jacky didn't care for him he couldn't have been more wrong. She cared for him too much, sometimes. She had started fights with Kratos on his behalf in the past. And though she would never say it, it hurt her more than anything the way Yuan denied her. She felt insignificant and that she made no difference to the people she cared for most. And it caused her to have insecurities. She constantly worried that she never did enough for Kratos or Shuraiya now as well. She couldn't survive another event like Yuan's.

Arriving at the hospital was simple, especially now that Peony had helped her to gain access to Yuan's room. But she didn't enter cheerfully as she normally would. Instead, she knocked carefully. She couldn't be herself around Yuan at the moment. It would only upset him and ruin everything again. She would have to settle for restraining herself.

"Yuan?" She called to him softly, praying he hadn't changed his mind.

[Locked to Yuan]

I would like to apologize for my behavior previously. I reacted badly to my emotions and said many things I should not have to you.

... I feel I must also apologize for everything else that has occured. Not just my abandonment of you but....

It has become clear to me that my presence in your world, in both yours and Kratos' lives, has been the cause of much of your troubles. I had never meant for this... for either of you. I... I'm sorry, Yuan.

This is all my fault.

[Locked to Shuraiya]

... Brother? Have things returned to normal for you as well, now?

[Locked to Kratos]

Have I told you how happy I am to have you back?

It appears that normal life has restored itself once again. I am grateful to be back with Kratos, I missed him dearly during our time apart.

Currently we have left Aselia and have returned to my world to make preparations for our trip. We have met up with Higgins, Jim, and Katy Deere as well, and it was a glorious reunion indeed. After learning some information on the west from Katy Deere we have decided to travel down the Allegheny to Pittsburgh where we may get supplies.

As for the boat. I believe I have secured one for us. All that remains is to deal with one man who seeks to rob us of all we own. Pricing a downriver trip for 5 at $100 when he sailed upriver with 33 for $66. I believe $50 is a fair price for the boat. And he has already signed his name, as illegibly as possible, to the deed giving me rights to the boat. All that remains is to discreetly remove him from the flagship of Faber Shipping Worldwide.

I do love owning a boat once again.


[Locked to Shuraiya]

I would like to thank you very much, dear brother, for caring for me during my hour of need. If not for you I would not have been able to make it through those few days so well. I love you very much, my brother, and I eagerly await the day that I might show you my boat.

....

H-he....

[She chokes back a sob]

Kr... Kratos! I'm... I'm so sorry! I didn't mean to! Please... please don't leave me...

... I need you, Kratos...

[Completely crying now]

Sh-shuraiya?


I... I screwed up... so bad...

[Private || Hackable to people she's close to (ie. Kratos, Shuraiya, Ten, and Nabooru)]

... I'm not much of a person lately. I do little to aid my friends and only cause more trouble than necessary...

[/Private]

Kratos, if we still plan on sailing down the Mississippi this season I believe I should make preparations in my world. It is not necessary for you to come, Jim and Higgins have agreed to helping me, and we should be ready soon so it might be easiest if you wait here for us.

Kratos and I are going to be taking a trip down the Mississippi of my world should anyone care to join us. I am sure the ship will have plentiful room for guests, and I plan to charge people of my world for passage as well so you shall not be the only guests. I will provide more information once I have obtained a boat.



Also... the wings are finally off. I miss them...

I had thought Halloween a day to dress up. As such, I felt the need to indulge myself and design a costume of my own. But it seems the false wings I donned seem to be more... permanent than I had expected. Is this a normal occurrence?

( in bed )

Had to post.

Back to research!

Hmm. I'm feeling a little bored as of lately. Arche! We should plan for the sailing trip soon if you still wish to go on it. It might be able to provide some entertainment for us. Not to mention we could bring others along with us.

Speaking of others, I'm glad to hear your tattoo is coming along nicely and you don't regret it, Shuraiya. It makes me so happy to hear that!

I was wondering, though? Kratos, Shuraiya... have you two really talked much?

Oh look, Angel did more Kratos/Jacky art.

I just had to do something for the genderswapped event. Too hard to resist! XD

( I'll take this piece of you / And hold for all eternity ~ ♫ )

I must say... today takes me back. I do miss my Emerald so much. She was a beautiful ship....

I think I might get another ship. If anyone desires to sail with me it will be well worth it.


[Locked to Arche, hackable to Kratos and Shuraiya]

Arche. We have worked out a few more ideas for the wedding.

Of course, as luck would have it, after I have all ready given myself a birthday Grandfather decides to tell me my real birthday. I decided to visit with him at the Home before returning to Aselia when he mentioned it. I hadn't thought to ask him before is why I didn't know before. But he mentioned its coming soon, it seems.

My real birthday is October 2. August 12 was my mothers', which was why I chose it for myself. I'll have to remember this for the future, though.



[Private || Hackable only to those with skills]

Of course... when I told Grandfather that I didn't know when my birthday was or when I was born he was kind enough to inform me of this.

It seems I was born October 2, 1790.

... I'm 15 years old. I had thought... hoped that I was closer to 18 at the least. This puts an age difference of about 12 to 13 years between Kratos and myself physically... I don't think I will be telling him my real age. I know the news would only worry him... I like it my way better anyways.

... I would have preferred to be 18.


[[ooc: Okay... so Jacky's 6th book finally came out and I read it fast, obviously. Awesome book. But they just now decided to divulge Jacky's age and birthday information. She always speculated age which was why I skimped on the age too, but now its official. Jacky's birthday is October 2 and she'll be 16 here soon. XD Kratos is marrying a very young girl. XD]]

.... Sorry Kratos.

Okay... Everyone's doing this.

Most of my newer journals have a concrit post... okay all of my newer journals do. Only Jacky's, Bella's, and Kaye's don't. And I'll change this so that they have the same three posts every new journal I make has. I include a concrit post, a contact post, and a set-up post so there is no excuse why anyone can't contact me. And I'm very approachable and very polite and always friendly to new people I talk to. I love crit and I handle it well. It makes me better, so don't be afraid to give me some.

This is my contact and I'll have everything properly set-up for Jacky, Bella, and Kaye soon. As for my other muses, they have posts in their journal for crit and contact. Use them if you need to.

My contact:
Email: Skyprincess92@gmail.com
Aim: MidnightLullabii

Jacky Contact:
Aim: Tonda Lay O 17

Yuan had slowly been recovering sine the goddess had visited, and Jacky had been keeping an eye on him to make sure things were well. Of course, the past few days she could do little being a dog. But she was back to normal now, which meant it was time to pay Yuan a visit again. Not that he didn't visit him enough, but he was getting better now and she liked to check in on him. He was even awake at some points.

Kratos was with her today as well. A conjoined visit to check on their friend. Jacky was holding his hand as she pulled him down the familiar hallways to Yuan's room, somewhat in a hurry now that she was human again. 

When they reached the room Jacky did not hesitate to enter. She hoped Yuan would be awake this time. It made her feel a lot better knowing that he was starting to wake up.

Rghhhhhhhh

[muffling as she paws at the screen.]

[Soft yips and whining]

[Light occasional thump as her tail keeps hitting the bed]

[Going to attempt to type now]

Kreatods  p[l;say ewithj m,e!!!@!

I list the characters I play with their journals. You ask questions, on your IC journal or OOC journal, it doesn't matter. They answer IC. Okay? Okay. It can be about their username, what their favorite food is...whatever your mind can come up with.

My characters:

→ Jacky Faber ← (xx_bloody_jack)

← Bella Swan → (xx_dangermagnet)

→ Kaye Fierch ← (changeling_fae)

← Yoko Ritona → (donttouchmygun)

→ Lisette ← (stained_hood)

← Yuuki Cross → (guardian_cross)

→ Shayera Hol ← (flying_mace)



(I have too many past characters to list them. We're sticking with this list!)